Confessions...

I admit, that fun as it is to just be mean on here, I love knowing that I can come here and complain or gush about anything without fear of annoying anyone! I don't have any followers anyway, and if I get them, then they're just gonna have to deal with this stuff =P

Today though, I don't wanna rant or vent or anything...at least not in a bad way. Because something wonderful is happening! For the first time ever, I'm not going to complain about guys never taking an interest in me...because I think someone has!

Some of you may think it's odd to be this excited about a not-even-a-date. But I am almost 23 years old...and quite frankly, I've been single for most of that time. I had a 'boyfriend' for about three months...but it was an online thing and he was in the army so we couldn't talk at all...and I honestly don't even count it, since I never saw the guy in person -.-

I have been on a date though! A few actually, the summer two years ago, lol. That's honestly it, so sue me =P

Now I'm gonna tell the whole story here...I haven't told it to anyone else yet, I don't wanna make a big deal out of this. Every time I do and people get excited for me, things go wrong...so I'm keeping my mouth shut. Still, I feel the need to just blurt everything out to someone, even my brother has been a victim of pointless details! So I figure I'll just tell it all here and no one will know and I'll feel better, lol.

Alright so I have Cultural Communications on Mondays, and I was running a bit late. Rather silly since it doesn't start until 1:40, but I am a well practiced procrastinator. Especially when it comes to waking up in the morning. So between me waking up late, traffic, missing the first bus and walking across campus, I was about ten or fifteen minutes late. I'm NEVER that late, it was awful! Especially since we had a guest speaker that day >.> So I get there and the lights are dimmed and I basically have to tiptoe past the speaker. My usual seat in the front row on the left was taken, likely by another late student. So I kept going back the row, taking a seat behind some guy.

The presentation was a blast, we talked about media's effect on how we think, and so we talked about Disney and Comics and such, it was wonderfully nerdy XD And the guy in front of me kept seeming to notice my little comments...like how I could name all the x-men in the picture, and called Superman Calel and such...Finally, the teach mentioned a new thing at taco bell with a taco shell made of doritoes! I was laughing with everyone else and said "Really? That's awesome!"

And he turned around. Suddenly little comments and such were going back and forth between us, like how Batman was so much cooler than Superman and such...then during break we talked more. And then we got our movie assignments for a project, and we talked more. And then at the end of class, he gave me his number.

Let me just take a moment to squeal about that again...that is the first time I've gotten a guys's number and had him say 'you should call me sometime.' It was beautiful!

I texted him instead, just so he'd get my number since I had another class. And that turned into more talking, which went on until 2am. We talked about all sorts of random stuff! Including a bunch of promises that basically imply that we're going to be a part of each other's loves for a while. He's gonna make me go skiing, I'm gonna make him watch firefly, stuff like that...he'll make the dinner while I make the dessert...I've promised to take him to Florida next summer, lol.

So anyway, in History of Broadway, that second class, we set up a 'Date" for Wednesday. I'm hesitant to call it a date, though everything seems to say that it is one. We're gonna hang out all afternoon then go to a movie...seems legit, right?

At the same time, we found out that we're both out of class by 4:30 and I have class next at 5:50, so he offered to hang out with me while I waited.

I spent all day getting more and more nervous. Part of it is that it's right before my infusion, so my insides hate me. Feels like having butterflies constantly. So when I get real butterflies it's near torture, lol. Anyways today went all wonky. My car was dead, so Mommy had to drive me to Chem and pick me up after Chem lab...then he skipped class early, so I drove back around 3:30... We played pool for a while at the student center which was fun, and rather flirty, I admit. Then he drove me to a burger place where he bought me dinner. Dinner which we hardly ate since we were so busy talking and my stomach felt like a beehive between nerves and almost-infusion-ness >.>

Then he drove me back to class...and my goodness it was wonderful! I've never connected with a guy so fast before! It's not super new like with Bob, or a best friend first thing like with Victor. It's not an online flirtation like Nick, or super awkward but 'I don't have any other options, so I'll give it a chance' like with Cory. No...it was just natural. And wonderful and awesome!

Found out we have an almost frightening amount of stuff in common, including interests and ideals and music taste, and lack of previous boy/girlfriends...only thing really different is that he's a lot more active and outdoorsy, while I'm super artsy. But I can make nerdy references and know he'll understand them! Mostly =P And we can talk for hours about everything from social fun drinking but not getting drunk, to how dumb drugs are but how good hookah is...to future plans to video games to silly adventures and friends and cars...gah! So much!

So yes. It has been wonderful so far, and I feel like I've known this guy for ages rather than two days, lol. Holy shit, two days? Really? Only two? I honestly cannot believe it o.O

Anyways, tomorrow is still giving me super butterflies. No, Batman butterflies -.- Harsh and almost painful. I have to admit, I really do like this guy. I'm not gonna say crush yet, but there is some definite potential here! I'm hesitant to even wonder aloud if it'll go anywhere, I don't want to ruin things. So for now, I'm just going to admit the straight out facts. We're gonna hang out and see a movie and smoke some hookah. As feriends with a possible more in store. We'll just wait and see.

~Emmy