The Bitch Corner

That's what've decided shall be the secondary name for this blog. It makes sense too, but I must explain it in such a way that'll mean it makes sense to everyone, and not just in my brain.

You see, I am a nice person. And I don't mean that I smile and nod and am polite and such. I mean I am a very nice person. As in...I don't really know how to be mean to anyone. Seriously, I don't! Well, my brother perhaps. But I've known him forever and we know when we mean it when we say mean stuff and when we don't and just need to cool off. But aside form him? I honestly have a hard time even hinting to people that I'm upset with them for any reason.

This is both a good thing, and a very bad thing. On the good side of the argument, my friends always know they can trust me, and they like me, and stuff like that. I'm fun to hang out with, and I'm dependable and such.

On the other hand, it means that I'm hiding every negative feeling I get. And it all tends to build up inside of me until I'm ready to explode at the world. At which point I lock myself in my room and refuse to speak to people for a week, and they wonder why.

Because apparently, either I'm VERY good at hiding my emotions, or people are even less observant than I give them credit for. You'd think people would notice that when I'm happy, I'm chatting and taking part in the conversation. So when I go quiet, there's likely something wrong. But do people notice? Nope.

So yeah, that's my life. Spent hidden away from the world, with people - even my friends - never knowing the truth of who I am.

How depressing is that? -.-

So for this reason, this blog will be a place to vent when I need to. I can't do it in any of my other online homes, because I've got too many close friends in too many places. Both real life and online ones. If I rant about something, it'll have to be here, because it's the only location with no connections to any of my other online accounts.

So yeah, that's why my nickname for this place will be Bitch Corner. Because this is the one time I will allow myself to let the bitchy thoughts that I secretly have out in the open. Even if I don't have anyone following me, it's nice to know that it's public, you know?

~Emmy